Sunday, December 25, 2005

Christmas processing


To the right is Josh after his noon feeding, passed out in minutes! Below is Josh with the excitement of a bottle on its way. Must be nice for life to be so simple, Big people come, put food in my mouth. I go to sleep, to allow processing. Then deposit processed food into diper. Then Big people come back, remove processed food and start over again.























Above and to left is Lillian being held by monster in law, I mean mother in law. It is very difficult to get a picture with her eyes open, but I assure you she is absolutly beautiful. Notice she is just beginning her food process. Which mean we just finished changing a diaper ful of poop. I figured I'd spare you the picture. I hope everyone had half the Christmas I did, if you did then your doing just fine.




Sunday, December 18, 2005

Gods Ears

As I hold her to my chest I feel her head bobbing. Searching for a nipple or just restless. I begin to whisper into her ear. The bobbing immeadiatly stops. My mouth not an inch from her ear. I tell her about all I know. Something catches my attention and my talking stops. There... the bobbing starts again. She's pushing her head into my neck, trying to get the talk to start again. Several monotone grunts untill I start to whisper once again. Her ear takes the love right out of my mouth and funnels it into her head. The love fills her head making it too heavy to lift. She soon swallows it and her body goes limp. I tell her of my day, meaningless chatter. Somehow her ear changes what I say into Christmas stories and tales of horses running on far away mountains. Her tiny feet, toes in a curl, stick out of the bottom of her gown. 3rd down and six yards to go, removes my attention from her. They can't keep punting on every possesion. The bobbing starts again, along with sweet grunts of a soft voice. I start to whisper once again,
I make myself small and crawl into her ear.
Let her know she has nothing to fear.
Let her know that my arms are strong.
That I will lift her up and take her along.
Whisper to her, she need not be afraid.
That these are the moments for which I have prayed.
She soon drifts off to sleep, taking my stories into her dreams. How much does she know? She lets out a sigh as I lay her down next to her brother. He will watch over her for now. I worry about keeping this home for them forever. I want to give them this life. I want to give it to my wife. I want the lord to give it to me.
He has........

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Accumulative Error

What is accumulative error? The concept is simple. Lets say you need to measure one mile. If you have a tape measure that is one mile long, you will be quite accurate perhaps within 1/8 th of an inch or so, not to shabby. But lets say you only have a 12 inch ruler. One mile is 5,280 feet long, so you take the ruler lay it down, draw a line at the end and then move the ruler to the line and draw another line. If you do this 5,280 times you will be one mile, right.....Problem is, when you pick up that ruler and move it to the line , the line may be 1/16th of an inch thick, so do you go to the middle of the line, the outside of the line, the inside? You may be off up to 1/16th of an inch each time you move the ruler. Doesn't sound like much, does it? By the time you do this 5,280 times you could be off 27.5 feet. So if you were to use this method to find someone's house, you may end up knocking on the wrong door.
In the world of science, accumulative error is rarely accounted for. I was watching Discovery channel, and they were showing the evolution of the horse. They carefully mapped out the family tree 55 million years back to a creature called hyractherium. I thought to myself, what if just one of those ancestors is wrong. The whole thing could be wrong. We don't actually have the DNA, so decisions about ancestors are made on appearance alone. So we could be compounding accumulative error. It took us almost 50 years to figure out that T-Rex didn't drag its tail, so do we really know that much about appearances of fossils. I am not saying that the trail of equuis ancestors is wrong. I'm just saying that we should never accept it as fact. Always be skeptical. If one of those ancestors in the horse tree is wrong and perhaps belongs in another group, then the accumulative error compounds even more. Not just for the horse group but for whatever group it really belongs. Even more, if evolution doesn't happen The way we think it does, the error could be even higher. Every scientist has a preconceived notion of what he expects is correct, its human nature.
I once watched a show on the T-rex, where two well known paleontologist debated over the behavior of T-rex. One (I think it was Bob Barker) felt that T-Rex was a fast moving hunter, quick and agile. The other, felt that he was a slow moving scavenger. They both used the size of the upper leg bone verses the size of the lower leg bone to justify how fast he could run. One said that the lower leg bone was larger than the upper leg bone. Other animals that posses this quality such as ostriges run very fast. The other said the upper leg bone was longer than the lower leg bone, and animals that posses this quality such as iguanas, move very slow. I'M watching this thinking to my self. They are measuring the same damn animal. How in the hell can they get different measurements. I think one was including the knee (which isn't even there) in the upper bone measurement and the other was counting it in the lower (or perhaps ankle was included). Point being they both have a preconceived idea of what they expect to find and manipulate the data to their favor. Sometimes an unproven idea gets kicked around so much it becomes fact. Such as the Big Bang theory. And others build on that unproven fact. Hence, more accumlitive error.I know people that think the DaVinci code is real!
As Ben Franklin said "We don't know 1/10th of one percent, about anything"